Socializing has never been my forte. Especially here I find this, where social scene is exclusive and dichotomous… the expat scene is strong and overpowering, but involves no local people whatsoever. Expats come here for years and bubble themselves into this very americanized existence.
I don’t feel the connection, I don’t feel like I fit in with it.
I have decided internally to make the effort, and for the past two weekends have involved myself a lot in this social world. I’m not sure it feels entirely right. I’m not sure I have really met anyone yet where I felt that effortlessness, that ability to connect. I’m not sure I’ve really understood where these people are coming from, all their different mentalities that somehow all seem different than mine.
I’m not sure where in this world I am meant to be. Instead I am in learning mode, discovery mode. Mat told me, when you meet the right people, it will be effortless.